Jan 9th 2000

Today was a good day, a very good day. I woke up feeling good, rested, hungry (I am going on the third day of my fast) tomorrow I will eat. I am cleansing the body and mind and getting rid of toxin. When I woke up this morning I did my meditation and was changed up. Aunt Janet hurt her back and I was in perfect mode for the healing process. I was centered and content, peace and harmony were mine. Her backache went away immediately. I studied for about three hours, worked on my web site, took Mr.Mouse to the park, went swimming, and studied again for about an hour, meditated, took a nap and did house cleaning, and cooked dinner for my family. After dinner I meditated again and felt so energized. I have been out of wack lately and have decided to center myself again had a nice talk with my mother about Karma.

It is good for her to talk about things she knows about. She has lost confidence in herself since she has been sick and this sort of perk her up. We laughed about all the new age things going on, and I asked her questions she use to be too busy to answer, or I was too young to know. She seemed to be happy when I told her that I found more peace by getting back into my meditation and getting rid of the things that no longer serve purpose in my life. I told her about when I was in meditation today how centered I felt, that is was easy to fall back into the "groove" of the center, just as easy as it is to fall backward. Forward feels much better. I am learning not to regret loss and at the same time not to be too overjoyed. This teaches me to live more for the sake of others and no for myself. Not to think as individuals, but rather as a group. This also frees your self of the myriad of distractions that hover over us.

We talked about things she did teach me. How good it is to not reveal all you know so that others may find the joy in teaching you. We discussed reincarnation some. My mother believes reincarnation exist one time, many at the one birth. She says the math is there. It seems to me that there is a lot of wisdom there, as many saying go about treating others as you would like to be treated your self. Maybe that is why Yahshua says, "Love thy neighbor". Hum, thy neighbor may be thyself. Love thy enemy. Thy enemy may be thyself. One can go on and on huh? I have not made up my mind about how I believe concerning reincarnation, or types of reincarnation. If we did live lives over and over, unlike all at once or none at all, there would be many facets to karma wouldn't there?

As in the Akasha. A sort of imperishable file of your lives. This could involve working out karma with your self and others you have been close to in the other life, and then frequently repeat the association with them life after life until the energy comes into balance. Yikes, I can think of a few. Perhaps if I thought in this manner, I would be more cautious, and with reflex recognize the enemy, or bad acquaintance. It is hard for me to only think though, I must "believe". But I will begin to figure out a system that will fit this mode. You have heard the words "You are what you eat?" Even more so, "we are what we say we are?" we become who we come around, a product of the environment, an easy trap, a perfect distraction. It certainly feels like there are times in our lives that we are drawn to certain individual who are not good for us. Like karmic umbilical cords tied together from the past. But with lucid discernment, no matter how drawn to the individual we are for what ever reasons, with training would avoid this by observing that this person intends nothing but evil for us and refuse to engage. Disarm their hate with love. That doesn't mean you have to do it by associating with them, but rather having good thoughts about them so as to untie the cord and set your self free

I remember in the early 70's while living in Hawaii, my yoga teacher (who I later married) would teach about how knowledge given to certain karmic conditions could modify the "action." Most people believe that karma, which means "action" in Hindu, is the working of the law of cause and effect. But this isn't completely true, that leaves too little information to freely let us grow. The law of cause and effect is on all planes and under all circumstances. It is motion, motive, so I would say that karma is the "working" of the law of cause and effect by free will. I don't think that one could have direct interference with karma, but I know we can modify the "action" by "knowledge" = wisdom applied.

Enough said for tonight. I am tired and happy, and full of wonder at the very possibilities of splendor and hopes that will happen this year. This is truly going to be a FANTASTIC year for me and you too, if you want it to be. I BELIEVE this.

Good night.